Here’s the thing about Sam Winchester. I see a lot of folks say things like they liked his character in the early seasons but then he just got annoying or boring as the show went on and what I think they are failing to take into consideration is that the story broke Sam. It broke him over and over and over again. But despite this, he kept standing and he kept fighting and he kept going, all the way to the very end. Because Sam’s story isn’t about not breaking. Sam’s story is about learning how to continue on when you’ve been pulverized into a thousand million tiny little bits that you now have to figure out how to hold together. It’s about being so deeply and repeatedly traumatized that you lose yourself and each time you have to find yourself again. It’s about taking a beating and then getting back up. It’s not about not letting life get you down, because it fucking will, it’s about learning how to pick yourself back up again. So, yeah, Sam changed as the show went on. He wasn’t the exact same guy at the end that he was at the beginning because even though the story broke him, he didn’t let that stop him.
jesus can always reject his father but he cannot escape his mother’s blood he’ll scream and try to wash it off of his fingers but he’ll never escape what he’s made up of
i love supernatural (sam talking, sam suffering, sam being sad, sam clinging to his brother, sam being lucifer’s vessel, sam crying, sam interacting with anyone, sam having demon blood, sam wearing the carhartt hoodie, sam fucking nasty, sam having shoulder length hair, sam having giant baby cow eyes, sam-
Hey, so do y’all remember the season 8 finale of Supernatural where Sam was supposed to confess his sins to purify himself? Okay, well I was watching the scene again and I just started bawling my eyes out when I realized Sam was supposed to ask a higher power (God, the angels, any higher being, really) for forgiveness.
And somewhere along the way, somewhere tucked between a broken prayer and a plea for forgiveness, Sam realized everything he was confessing had somehow hurt Dean or somebody Dean loved.
“How many times I let you down” makes me believe at some point Sam forgot he was confessing to God. Somewhere along the lines, he began asking forgiveness from DEAN.
Forgiveness from a higher being wouldn’t mean anything as long as Dean wasn’t proud of him. Dean is everything ranging from his brother to his soulmate… the person who watched Sam grow up into the brave person he is now.
Disappointing Dean is the worst thing Sam has ever done, and it’s not until Season 8 where we realize how badly this affects Sam. It comes to the point where Sam doesn’t want to even live. The boy who had been the voice of reason and the voice of hope wants to die all because he’d let down his big brother.
So, okay, Sam confessed to God, but the only forgiveness he ever asked for was for Dean’s, and that’s one of the most painfully bittersweet realizations I’ve had about his show in a long time.
